I'm finding myself really struggling over what a Christian woman's life is supposed to look like. There are what seems innumerable voices shouting different and conflicting answers. Seems like I've been in this place for awhile, and I can't seem to get a sufficient grip on the question let alone the answer. I realize of course that the answer is Jesus, and that because there are so many factors to consider no two lives will look exactly the same at all. Yet it seems to me, given that the answer is Jesus, all lives lived for Him will have the same heart and root . That is one of the precise points where my struggle centers. What does that heart and root look like in a woman's life when she is really committed to Jesus?
I'm a homeschooling mom. I've been a homeschooling mom since the eighties which probably makes me a dinosaur among other things. At any rate the message to women at that time was that revival comes through the family. We were told that the church would turn to Jesus if the families would raise their children for Jesus. So, that's where we attempted to walk. Our lifestyles were truly revolutionized as we brought our children home and eschewed public education. The message seems to me to have changed over the years, as homeschooling has become more accepted and even sometimes popular ( but that's better left for a different blog).
I find myself now at a point where you evaluate. Did we or are we making the difference that we hoped and prayed for? Perhaps I lack answers because no true evaluation is possible until the Judgement Seat of Christ, but I do not want to be at that eternal moment attempting to offer wood hay and stubble to Almighty God. So, what does an American homeschool mom 's life need to look like, in order for it not to fall into the category of wood, hay, or stubble? I'm sure by now I should have a good and established answer for that question, but I find myself unsure. I wonder what the other dinosaurs think. :)
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